How Weight Loss Changed Me: the Good, the Bad, the Lists
by Charlotte Siems
Along the way from size 22 to 6, I sat down and wrote two lists. I was at about a size 12 when the lists were written. About ten months earlier, when I started exercising with T-Tapp, I had finally told myself the truth about my weight and the shape I was in. Focusing on my final goal, which was actually a size 10 at the time, the lists were a way of helping me get perspective and to see how much progress had been made.
One of the special difficulties of being a More to Lose person was the temptation to focus only on how far I had to go rather than on how far I had come.
At the time of the lists I must have been in a slow spot. When results slow down or seemingly halt, we tend to focus on our “mistakes” or ways we haven’t been perfect. The problem is that we then feel a little comforted about those choices and use them as a way to go on a break from the things we should be doing, and as an opportunity to feel sorry for ourselves.
“Hey, I already skipped two workouts and ate too much this week, so I may as well forget it and start back up on Monday.”
I can only tell you these things because I’ve been there, done that.
Back to the lists. Here they are, copied straight from a journal:
Lack of energy
Limited choices in clothes
Blood sugar issues (on the road to diabetes)
Difficulty getting up, down, in or out
Barely fit in bathtub or behind car steering wheel
Mental and physical barriers in marriage
After Losing Weight:
Getting rid of too-big clothes
Feeling confident in appearance
Delighting in compliments (and others’ surprise)
New wardrobe in regular Misses’ sizes
Smaller feet/shoe size
Surprise at my reflection in the mirror
Much more energy and flexibility
Easier to exercise and do physical activities
I think the lists were a good thing. They helped me focus on the life ahead and get real about what the former life had been. It was encouraging and motivating to write down, pen to paper, the changes and progress.
Most of us write lists—to-do lists, grocery lists, birthday lists. How about encouraging yourself with the changes you’ve seen so far, or the compliments you’ve received? Even if no one has noticed yet, you feel different and you’re on your way. Even if you’re just writing where you want to be, writing the hopeful vision can give you a boost and bright place to focus.
Someday you’ll look back on your list and be amazed at how far you’ve come.